To be honest, since I got out of jail last December 2010, Although I was on probation with occasional drug testing (urine), I have been using cocaine 1-4 times per week.
I wasn't using habitually like in the past, just spending $10.00 - $30.00 each of those days.
About a month ago I found someone who could get me ecstasy (or something that was a-lot like ecstasy.
I don't really like cocaine, my mind just tricks me into thinking it's something I want.
For me, it's too speedy, makes me too nervous and the only part I really enjoy only lasts for a few seconds (when smoking it).
Ecstasy is a whole other ball game.
I enjoy almost every minute of it, except near the end when it's wearing off, it feels like that part takes forever, stuck in between being high and being normal again.
Well, I want to get back to my wife being out of work.
Her being home all the time or the possibility of her coming home any time
(which is where I always use cocaine) deterred me from using cocaine quite a bit.
When I got the X (ecstasy) a few weeks ago, that made me remember just how much I prefer using X and that coke is a waste of time and money.
I still think about using coke a-lot, but seem too have more control over my mind & impulse to go and get some.
My wife connected with some designers in her field of work who want her to work at home putting together their clothing & other articles, so that (thank God) is another deterrent which is helping me stay away from wasting my time & money on coke.
That and the fact that our income has been greatly effected since she was between jobs.
As for myself, I have held down the same job since March 2011 after I got out of jail (5.5 months)
My job doesn't give us (the employees) very many hours though, which is another reason I had a-lot of extra time to fool around and use drugs.
Fortunately about the same day I met my connection for X, I had someone respond to an ad I had in http://miami.craigslist.org/ where I had offered my services to hand out flyers (propaganda) for a business.
My idea was to get 2-3 business to let me do that, for only a few hours a day and earn from each one of them for working the same hours essentially making about $21.00 per hour for a few hours a day.
I love being an entrepreneur and selling.
So, what it all boils down to is that, due to certain circumstances that came to be in my life, I have been able to attain my goal these past few weeks, which is to stop using coke.
I never even liked the stuff, even though I have used it on and off for about 22 years.
It's just that coke has a strange way of staying on ones mind and one has to really make an extra effort to stay away from it. Click Here To See Next Post ---> http://recoveryadvice.blogspot.com/p/drugs-incorporated-national-geographic.html
